Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Aepri's Astrology: Special Scorpio Eclipse Report Oct 22.

Death-Rebith by Lauren Raine
-Moon in Libra
-Sun sextile Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Sun conjunct Venus
-Mercury conjunct Node
-Mercury conjunct Venus
-Mercury sextile Jupiter
-Venus sextile Mars
-Venus conjunct Node
-Jupiter sextile Node
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith
-Uranus square Pluto

Here we go...the dark is darknening into the dark. We are at the Dark Moon moment right before a very powerful eclipse in Scorpio tomorrow. This is the time to get to the bottom of our souls.

The moment we are born, (provided that we are healthy and alive) we come out crying. We are screaming as loud as we can!! I'M ALIVE!!!

We experience the first experience of what seems to be separation from Source. We become being with a separate body, heart, and mind. Our awareness of this continues to develop as well move through the stages of childhood, but this is the first moment.

So here we are...on the threshold of this Solar Eclipse. It's at 0 degrees Scorpio--ZERO--the beginning and the end. Some doors are closing, some are opening. All things on this plane happen cycles, round and round they go. Birth/death/birth/death...

Here is where we die, and where we are BORN. Here is where we might need to cry our at the top of our lungs in agony and ecstasy at the fact of being alive. Here is perhaps where we birth a bit more out of the womb of unconscious protection mechanisms that hold us back from living, and yet it may hurt to move out of the safety of it. It's cold out here, and I'm naked, for godssakes!!! Haha!! But you'll know what you are beyond the things that have buffered you up, things that you identified with and depended on that were illusions. They might go, but You will remain...

Here is a moment of Re-birthing ourselves. Truth is, we were never born, and we never really die. We are All that IS. Always and forever. Here is our moment to circle right back around to Source Perspective, here we see that we are not separate from anything at all!!! We are the Universe seeking to know Itself. Everything we desire, is simply ourselves wanting to experience ourselves. All we see around us is a mirror. Scorpio teaches us that it is not desire that is the source of suffering--it is the attachment of the mind to specific things and conditions, and an insistence on keeping those things unchanging (the shadow side of Scorpio's opposite polarity, Taurus) that causes us to suffer. That is what creates the illusion of separation and restricts the flow of Love.

Remember: In the womb, the HEART was the first thing that developed. It is the place from which all other systems developed, and it continues to have the most electromagnetic charge of all in our physical bodies (including the brain!). This is where to go for regeneration. See if you can rest in your heart, just rest there for now. Breath into it, and rest there. Let yourself cry if you need to, or accept that maybe you are not yet ready. All that happens here is correct.This, the Graal.

Even though we may be seeing the Goddess in Her darkest guise during this season, know that you are held by the Great Mother more closely than ever.

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Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Aepril's Astrology Report for Oct 21: subtle but powerful shifts

-Moon in Libra
-Sun sextile Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Sun conjunct Venus
-Mercury conjunct Node
-Mercury conjunct Venus
-Mercury sextile Jupiter
-Venus sextile Mars
-Venus conjunct Node
-Jupiter sextile Node
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith
-Uranus square Uranus

The sun has moved into the last degrees of Libra, the sign of relationship, balance, and justice. The last degrees of any sign are where the energies of the sign culminate and close; we are invited at this time to observe our relationships of all kinds. During this coinciding Dark Moon and Mercury Retro, we may wish to go within to rebalance our energies and realign with our truest Selves.

The personal and collective shifts happening now are powerful, but perhaps subtle. We might feel pressure to take decisive action, and yet perhaps there is more in developmental stages still, underneath the surface.

New chapters are asking to be born, but yet there are loose ends and unfinished business that may need to be managed. We can't change the past, but we CAN change our relationship to it. We cant control what other people do, but we CAN control our own choices, in relation to ourselves and others.

Perhaps it is "clear" to us what it is that another person needs. We might think that we know their story, and what would be good for them. This is perhaps a projection. I invite you to consider instead that our ideas about what would be good for someone else might be messengers to look at our own needs. Perhaps we can use the mirrors of relationship to come home to ourselves in some profound way. Often the unbalances that we see in others are reflections of the way that we relate to ourselves.

Sometimes feelings can be so overwhelming that we shut down. We maybe can't seem to feel at all. This is normal at times, and it's the psyches really smart way to self-protect. Challenging past experiences still held in the body may be coming up for many of us right now, and maybe not experienced consciously yet--perhaps anxiety, anger, or even an experience of depression. What if we treated these feelings as allied messengers? What if we didn't try to change or overcome anything for now, but allowed for what is? What if we honored our discomfort with patient presence, asking it gently, "what do you have to tell me?

Remember: this whole life thing is an experiment! There is no right way or wrong way to do this--and we are supposed to encounter obstacles that we bumble around. Bumbling is part of the experience! Give yourself a break if you can. :)

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Monday, October 20, 2014

Aepril's Astrology Report Oct 20: Big endings/Big Beginnings

-Moon in Virgo
-Sun sextile Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Sun conjunct Venus
-Mercury conjunct Node
-Mercury conjunct Venus
-Mercury sextile Jupiter
-Venus sextile Mars
-Venus conjunct Node
-Jupiter sextile Node
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith
-Uranus square Pluto

This is a time to look for answers from within.

It can be great to get advice from friends and family, and have the support of relationships; we can hold that with lots of gratitude. That said, this is perhaps a time when we are invited by the Universe to go internal for our support and clarity. To develop self-reliance and self-trust.

To be clear, this is not encouragement to cut oneself off or do the pretension of "rugged individualism". As humans, we are also interdependent and social beings, and we need each other. But we happen to do better at relating when we know and love ourselves well enough to be with ourselves completely, too. As long as we do not love and trust ourselves, we tend to try and control other people. And how does that usually go? ;)

We have the Eclipse in Scorpio on Thursday that may bring some things to a close. We also have an opportunity for freeing up long held energies for a new beginning. Scorpio is about about the deep psyche, and the feeling mode of perception and intelligence. As we move into the Darkening Times of Samhain, where the walls between worlds is thin, we can "see" in ways that we might not be able to normally. I invite you to see what might happen if you journey inward with an intention toward accepting what you find there. Let it tell you what it needs for movement and healing. There are answers waiting to be heard.

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Friday, October 17, 2014

The Nuit Report for Oct 17: Solar Eclipse in Scorpio



We have a week of deepening into intimacy with the Self. Luna continues to wane, and then at the moment of Her rebirth She merges with the Sun and Venus---but She also ECLIPSES, or throws shadow over, Her Lover, the Sun. The normal cycle of the dance between polarities of Masculine and Feminine are interrupted, and we get a chance to perceive that which has been obscured by normal "waking" consciousness.

Next week's partial Solar Eclipse at 0 degrees Scorpio coincides with the Sun ingressing into Scorpio simultaneously with Luna and Venus. Venus's aspect as BABALON rises, inviting us to ACCEPT OURSELVES completely, receiving all the comes. This is deepest intimacy with all that is within us; this is the Truth of the Heart, as She is the Graal. She is Lust for Life itself, for the whole Universe that we are. To reject Her is to leave parts of ourselves to die, and thus invite Her destructive aspects.  

This lunation is known as Lunar Samhain, the ingress into Samhain-tide. The hinge of the Wheel when the veil of the illusion of separation is thinnest. It is the Witches New Year, and as such we engage with the cycles of Death and Rebirth. How do we relate to these cycles? Do we invite them to change us with ease, or do we have resistance to changes? 

This last quarter Moon period into culmination at the Eclipse gives us a chance to enter into ourSelves more fully via the Feeling Body. Where we avoid feeling, we avoid life. Chances are, if we are afraid of fully feeling due to fear of the change we worry that it might herald, the change has ALREADY OCCURRED, we are just avoiding experiencing it. We live in a dead zone. This time gives us a chance to rise from the Dead and live again. 

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Thursday, October 16, 2014

Aepril's Astrology Report Oct 16: internal landscape

-Moon in Leo
-Sun sextile Jupiter, Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Sun conjunct Venus
-Venus opposite Uranus
-Venus sextile Jupiter
-Venus conjunct Node
-Mars square Chiron
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith

Mercury conjuncts the Sun, and then Venus tomorrow. Mercury is retrograde; the God of Messages pedals backwards and inward. The Sun will move past Mercury as he passes by, like the sensation of the world moving backward from the window of a train. Perhaps this is a time to move forward as informed by the Heart, as opposed to allowing the thoughts to run the show. The thought-ego-mind may do better to serve as Administrative Assistant, not as Boss.

There are some harmonious energies going that support us in taking some new steps. Maybe some of us still have internalized the idea that in order for something to be correct and worthwhile, it must be difficult. We must strain and suffer. Perhaps we apply this to relationships, to jobs, to anything. I invite you to question this idea.

Saturn in Scorpio (deep psyche purge and senex) and Jupiter in Leo (heart and divine child) are currently in a conflicting aspect with one another. Perhaps we perceive this squaring of energies in our own internal landscape, at war with ourselves in some way. Perhaps we are "hanging on" to some form in our lives that we sense that we might do better to release. But here's the thing: if we find ourselves unable to "let go", there may be a good reason that our deep psyches have to keep that form in place. There may be an unconscious need that is being met; we are being served by it in some way. In fact, trying to force ourselves to "release" something before we are deeply ready is a violence to our Emotional Bodies, as we are effectively saying "NO, you are wrong" and rejecting its wisdom. Remember, the Heart does not make "sense" to the Mind, at least not right away sometimes. Now is a good time to gently invite your heart to tell you what its message is. What does your Heart want most? See if you can accept what is said. It might be surprising.

Come back later for this week's Nuit Report!

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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Aepril's Astrology Report Oct 15: resistance and awareness

-Moon in Cancer
-Sun sextile Jupiter, Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Sun conjunct Venus
-Venus opposite Uranus
-Venus sextile Jupiter
-Venus conjunct Node
-Mars square Chiron
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith

You are the Universe experiencing ITself. You are the front line.

We have a plethora of squares going on today involving the Moon in Cancer, along with Mercury Retrograde conjunct an activated North Node, Venus, and Sun, all together in a Libra stellium. This is conflictual energy, especially concerning the mirror of relationships. We're also in between eclipses; we are headed toward a Solar Eclipse in Scorpio in just over a week. This is a moment in which the Universe invites us to initiate come sort of movement in our lives. We are welcomed into relationship with parts of ourselves that yearn for connection and integration.

Sometimes we become aware of needing something by experiencing its opposite polarity. Usually if we feel "stuck" in some place, it is because we need something within ourselves to be heard and acknowledged. Even if we do not perceive ourselves to be stuck, it can be good to check in.

I invite you to check in with yourself for a moment, and ask yourSelf: am I feeling resistance? See if perhaps you can refrain from hunting around for it with the mind, or from trying to change it, but just allowing the awareness of it to come to you. If you find that resistance comes up (or perhaps something else wants to be heard), see if you can explore and stay with the quality of the feeling. What am I feeling, and where do I feel it? Experience the feeling (though it may spontaneously change on its own, or even bring you to a deeper feeling). Then, if you can, ask the feeling that remains present what it has to tell you. This might be communicated in many different ways: images, words, etc. See if you can be patient with yourself. See what happens.

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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Aepril's Astrology Report Oct 14: truth heals all barriers to love

-Moon in Cancer
-Sun sextile Jupiter, Mars
-Sun conjunct Mercury
-Venus opposite Uranus
-Venus sextile Jupiter
-Venus conjunct Node
-Mars square Chiron
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Jupiter square Saturn
-Saturn square Lilith

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."--Rumi


We have a brief Cardinal Cross today, as Luna completes some intense squares with...just about everybody! Haha! She makes an opposition to Pluto, lord of Death, from the sign of Cancer. As much as she might want comfort now, it may be that we have some deep places to which we must travel.
Cancer is about our needs for safety, security, connection, and with this challenge from Pluto, we may become aware of some ways in which we block our own well-being in these ways.

It is my feeling that this time frame is about dealing with the Emotional Body primarily. We are invited (in some cases pushed!) by the Universe/Self to be present with our feeling selves AS WE ARE. So often we are afraid to feel what is present in our feelings because we feel that we might have to lose something precious to us. If we are present and authentic, we might have to admit that things are not as in alignment as our conscious minds would like to believe. This may bring up the painful specters of times past when we have lost, and we don't want to have to experience that again.

What might it feel like to be in alignment? Perhaps even this thought is scary, because it brings up the specter of the Unknown. If I lived in alignment---who would I even be??? Sometimes we can so attached to our identification with negative roles, we can block progress for fear of losing a sense of orientation, and therefore control (back-door way to get safety needs met!?). Sometimes we are like fish not knowing we are in water, so used to living within certain restrictions we are!

It is my perception that most of us we live in a shame-based milieu. So much of our dysfunctions, addictions, conflicts, dissatisfactions, etc, come from a deep sense of shame. Shame comes from receiving the message that our needs are not valid. It can be transmitted in ways as serious as overt physical abuse to ways as seemingly benign as "Don't cry sweetie...here's a lollipop." Because shame is painful, we shove it down into Shadow. This, of course, causes problems! Every day we are told to buy things lest we are shamefully lacking in worthiness. We are shamed to go to work, shamed to look a certain way, shamed to make enough money. We do it to ourselves and we do it to each other. This makes the Emotional Body shrink back in pain. We try to make up for deep shame by striving to be worthy, or by shaming other people (road-rage, for instance, is a symptom of suppressed shame). Usually, we are doing everything we can to avoid FEELING.

So...what is called for? Mental insight and awareness won't do the trick. It is about feeling. It is about being present with our Emotional Bodies. This may seem scary, because, well---who wants to do THAT? haha! Here's the thing: paradoxically, the child inside you might feel held unconditionally for the first time in a long time--maybe ever! And this can bring great relief---even bliss. You may be shocked by how much our feeling selves (Cancer) want to talk with us--to be heard, felt, witnessed, accepted (Libra). Sometimes, staying with a feeling, no matter how uncomfortable, no matter how much we might want to immediately apply "insights" or judge, or change it---staying with it, AS IS, will cause it to transform ITSELF. Truth heals.


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