Friday, May 22, 2015

The Nuit Report Weekly Astrology/Tarot for May 22-26: The Door Will Open.

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Tarot: The Journey of the Seeker
Exploring the Major Arcana with Aepril Schaile.
Live Webinar: 6 Wednesdays at 6-7:30 pm EDT beginning May 27. 


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In this six part webinar we will explore the 22 cards of the Major Arcana, otherwise known as the Trumps or Greater Secrets. Using the classic Rider-Waite-Smith deck, we will follow the Fool's Journey as s/he moves through the archetypes of each card, relating the concepts and experiences of each to our own lives. We will also look at the divinatory meanings of each card. We'll learn an easy and effective tarot spread for divination and applied practice. Register and find out more. 

The word respect breaks down to mean "to look again". Re (again) spect (to look, as in the word "spectacles").

We are invited by the Universe to look again. At ourselves, at others, at our beliefs, at what is that we feel.

Respect is the ability to look again-- and again-- at things as they are. To keep looking with fresh eyes, with the eyes of innocence. To look without a story. Sometimes it happens that we have an experience of something or someone, and that experience freezes our perception of that person or thing--or anything like it--for the rest of eternity! We lose respect for that person or situation from that point on. They cease to be alive, to be animated (enSOULed) and some part ourselves does, too.

Some of us may encounter a strong need to be right at this time. It can be a temptation to take a fixed position in order to create a sense of safety. But if we are stuck or oppositionally positioned in any way, this can is an indicator that we are needing to inquire further. There is perhaps a deeper need that is needing to be met emotionally, along with a hidden belief that can be approached with curiosity and compassion.

It might help to remember that the manifest Universe is the perfect mirror for what is within us. When we imagine that someone is judging us, we are judging them. In that moment is it WE who are being judgmental. We are also negatively judging ourselves, because of what we are imagining to be true. It is the same for everything. Why not instead focus on what is going right?

Lean into what is. Let the solutions come as they will. This is not passive, this is an active choice. Stop arguing with reality if you can, and step into your truth. It's the only truth, and comfort, we can know.

The moment you accept
what troubles you've been given,
the door will open.

-Rumi






Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Aepril's Astrology May 20 -21: true, necessary, kind

-Moon in Gemini > Cancer
-Sun in Taurus
-Sun opposite Saturn
-Mercury square Neptune
-Mercury conjunct Mars
-Venus trine Neptune
-Venus opposite Pluto
-Venus square Uranus
-Mars opposite Saturn
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Saturn square Neptune
-Chiron sextile Pluto
-Uranus opposite North Node
-Uranus square Pluto
-Uranus conjunct South Node
-Pluto square the Nodes

"At the first gate, ask yourself. Is it true?
At the second gate ask. Is it necessary?
At the third gate ask. Is it kind?”
--Rumi


Y'know, sometimes what we do is this: we are so involved in our thoughts ABOUT things, that we don't actually experience things.

For instance, we might be anticipating a meeting with someone important. We want so much for it to go well, and have all sorts of thoughts about what might happen, what we'll say, what we know they'll certainly say (and what we'll say to that!)... We have all sorts of other thoughts, too, thoughts that might be just below our conscious awareness, but strongly navigate things, like: I need for him to like me. I'm not up to par. I'm too old. I need to make sure that I'm important. That's cliche. I've need to be approved of. She's trying to manipulate me. What am I going to get from this? I need to not act like a fool. I'm smarter than him. She's gonna do the same things again, and this time I need to be prepared (with a good come back? Better hair? A new relationship to brag about?)...

This is where we get all screwed up. Thoughts like these keep us from direct, current experience. They take us out of reality and away from what is actually, currently true for us. And this is painful.

We strategize for how it is that we are going to relate, instead of actually relating. We imagine the other person up to something (like judging us), and we judge them. But it is really ourselves that we are judging in this way, every time. And when we treat ourselves badly, we are sure to treat another badly. This causes separation--disconnection--from ourselves and the other person. And isn't connection the reason that we are sitting there with another person in the first place?

Mercury is now retrograde, and as he does so he stays in a square with Neptune and makes a new conjunction with Mars. Now is a great time to get as honest as possible with ourselves about what is really happening in our inner landscape---and own it fully.

When we say "this person is judging me", what we are currently doing is judging. When we say "this person doesn't like me" what we are doing in that moment is disliking that other person. We immediately lose connection the second this happens, and we lose ourselves. We judge and dislike ourselves.

Maybe we can instead question what we are thinking. Is it true that I being judged right now? What makes me so sure? Do I need this person to judge me positively in order for me to be ok? Might this person here with me be frightened or confused? Am I? What is it that *I* think and feel in this situation?

Saturn in Sagittarius opposite the Sun in Gemini reminds us that we are 100% responsible for our thoughts. They don't run us, we run them. Just by observation, presence and inquiry we can do a lot. Saturn would say that giving something time and attention is sometimes all that is required.

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Monday, May 18, 2015

Aepril's Astrology May 18-19: Rework and renew

-Moon in Gemini
-Sun in Taurus
-Sun opposite Saturn
-Mercury square Neptune
-Venus trine Neptune
-Venus opposite Pluto
-Venus square Uranus
-Mars opposite Saturn
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Saturn square Neptune
-Chiron sextile Pluto
-Uranus opposite North Node
-Uranus square Pluto
-Uranus conjunct South Node
-Pluto square the Nodes

The Moon has been renewed, and we are now going forth--or backward--into Mercury Retrograde land!

For more about Mercury Retro, read my post What is Mercury Retrograde, and why does it sometimes seem to suck so bad?


"This is a great time to bust out old books that you have not looked at in some time, or re-watch your favorite films. Mercury rules knowledge (think: Hermes/Hermetic, think: Thoth) and He loves the collection of information with which we can create. Anything with the prefix “re”: Re-word, re-think, re-discover, re-member, re-negotiate, re-vitalize, re-assess, re-vision… you get the picture!"

We are coming away from a Dark/New Moon that happened only a few hours ago, and with it an opportunity to renew our relationship with our inner landscape. I'm thinking that this is a time where the dream life could be very active. For those who wish to remember their dreams more vividly, I recommend a dream journal. The Dream Agent likes to know that s/he is being heard, and will send you information as you demonstrate that you are ready to manage it.

With three planets in Mercury ruled Gemini opposing Saturn, there might be a serious and sober tone to this day. Both Mercury and the sign of Gemini prefer for things to stay lite and move fast. Obstacles may appear at this time, signaling that we need to slow down and pay attention to something important. Something may need to be reworked or said better. We are asked to take more care this time around.

Venus moves more closely into an opposition with Pluto. This is the Goddess of Love faced off with the Lord of the Underworld. This moving aspect also contributes to the intense tone, as self-worth and relationships get put to the test. We are challenged now to go deep, as this is where the medicine lives. This aspect intensifies as the week moves on. Venus is in Cancer, the sign of nurture and needs. We can be so frightened by our needs, and we learn to stuff them down in order to make ourselves less vulnerable and, ostensibly, more lovable. But needs always try to find a way to get met, especially if they are unconscious; they'll come in through the back door. This aspect could bring the fact of our need to the surface this week; the more consciously we can meet this challenge, the more fruitful it can be.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Nuit Report for May 14-22: New Moon in Taurus conjunct Algol

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"Where Wisdom reigns there is not conflict between thinking and feeling"-- Carl Jung, Mysterium Coniunctionis

We have a New Moon coming up this Monday just after midnight...in Taurus at 26 degrees.

This puts it conjunct the very intense fixed star Algol, the winking eye of Medusa. Hmmm....this is some heavy hitting stuff, especially considering that this New Moon also conjuncts Mars and opposes Saturn.

Medusa was punished unfairly by her ancient sister Athena for attracting the attention of--and violation by--Poseidon in Athena's temple. She was turned hideous and exiled, until her beheading death at the hands of the "hero" Perseus. Athena then wore Medusa's face on her breastplate ever after. Was this done in honor of, or in grief over, Medusa? Or as a trophy display? Perhaps both, we can't quite know.

We are invited to transform any deep long standing hurt, and bring together what may seem to be opposing aspects of our inner nature. We get the opportunity for an internal reset if we choose it. Themes of violation and betrayal may come up to be healed.

Is the way we are behaving really in alignment with what we say that we want? For instance, if we say that we want intimacy and connection, are we being intimate with ourselves and behaving in a way that connects with others? Or are we strategizing, compartmentalizing and/or otherwise defending against it? Defense is the first act of war. As in the case of Medusa turning those who looked at her into stone, thus killing them, are we using a position of victimhood to excuse hurtful behaviors? People who see themselves as victims are the most violent people.

Medusa could be seen as the instinctual, sexual, feeling, nature side, and Athena as the rational, intellectual, cultural/societal side. But yet legend has it that they were originally two sides of the same goddess. Perhaps the tarot card picked for this week can feel us more about uniting these seemingly disassociated parts once again.



Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Aepril's Astrology: May 13: reflection in the water.

-Moon in Pisces
-Sun in Taurus
-Sun sextile Chiron
-Mercury square Neptune
-Mars opposite Saturn
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Saturn square Neptune
-Chiron sextile Pluto
-Uranus opposite North Node
-Uranus square Pluto
-Uranus conjunct South Node
-Pluto square the Nodes


Anybody feeling confused at all? Oh? Really? Fantastic! Then you are right in tune with the energies that are at play right now!

The Moon is in Pisces, the wateriest of the water signs, and Void of Course to boot, along with Mercury in its shadow phase, square Neptune, set to go Retrograde any second now...

So I'm envisioning a boat at Sea, no land in sight, just sorta floating. And we're on it. Doo-dee-doo...now what? Why didn't a bring a book? (No internet service out here).

Sometimes we have to stop and just...be. This might be one of those times. Even if we're really busy, there might be something that feels a bit stalled internally for some of us. There are perhaps messages that are trying to get through, and because they speak so quietly, they need the silence in order to be heard above the usual noise.

The Heart is like this. The mind has no problem being heard--it is often yelling. But the Heart takes time and attention.

If we're getting frustrated with things not moving fast enough, this is a signal that we are moving too fast. And we lose can ourselves this way.

Imbalanced logic and aggressive action are likely to hit walls right now. It's a battle with yourself, like trying to punch your own image in a lake. It goes no where.

There is direction in what does not seem to make sense right now. What is revealed when we listen could be surprising and strange and unexpected---but no less true. Let it come to you, and see what new lights might turn on. Easy solutions might be right there under your nose.

I will be on a break from Thursday May 14- Sunday May 17. I will be posting the Nuit Report early this week, so be on the lookout for that! I will also be slow to respond to emails, so please be patient with response time. I will be answering them again Monday.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Aepril's Astrology May 11: resist/persist

-Moon in Aquarius
-Sun in Taurus
-Sun sextile Chiron
-Mercury square Neptune
-Mars opposite Saturn
-Jupiter trine Uranus
-Saturn square Neptune
-Chiron sextile Pluto
-Uranus opposite North Node
-Uranus square Pluto
-Uranus conjunct South Node
-Pluto square the Nodes


Things could get mighty healing-mystical-confusing-frustrating-what-planet-am-I-on this week. (That's the best adjective I could come up with!) Like, all of it.

See, we sometimes think we know what's going on. We think we know--for sure--what the other person is doing and why they're doing it, what is sure to happen, what is necessary (I HAVE to do this), etc. But the fact is that we really kind of don't know. Not for sure. Especially this week.

This world is funny place. It's a dream really, one that we are co-creating. Very fluid--more so than it appears. Things can get kind of hall-of-mirrors-y as things progress, leading up to Mercury going retrograde next week. And by week's end we get a test that could open our eyes to some hidden but very influential part of ourselves.

What we resist, persists. Mars up against Saturn this week might bring that which we are resistant to into focus. Perhaps we can do well to notice where the energy gets stopped up in our lives--where we get stuck, where we have the same issues time and again, even where our bodies have chronic pain. Usually, when we have resistance to anything, it is because we are having difficulty accepting what is true about that area of life. Something is not connecting.

The good news is that we have a wonderful opportunity to get aligned and connected. Keeping a dream journal at this time is a great idea. Noticing your moods while you are having them is another, asking yourself "Why am I feeling this right now?". Noticing thoughts, and asking yourself, "Is this 100% true?", is another idea that can lead to breakthrough. Maybe ask a friend if they might be able to offer kind insight into where you might be in resistance.

That pesky lesson that has come up over and over again might rear its head as the week goes on. There is a great opportunity this week to see it in a new light, creating freedom. I wonder might happen if we avoid spinning our wheels in it, and instead chose to be still enough to let its message really hit home?

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Friday, May 8, 2015

Nuit Report for May 8th: ART.

The Nuit Report for the week of May 8: ART.

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Mothers do a lot of giving, but they also need nurturing! Maybe that means YOU! We all need to be seen and heard, and maybe gifting yourself or another beloved person---a mother, a grandmother, etc. with a chart reading might be just the thing. Take advantage of this sale now.

We have the movement of two important planets into new signs: Venus into Cancer last Wed, and Mars into Gemini this coming Monday. The Divine Feminine as Shakti moves into the element of Water/Cups, and the Divine Masculine as Shiva moves into the element of Air/Swords. We are invited to create more union of thought with feeling, which equals Wisdom.

We're put to the best after the weekend as action-oriented Mars makes an opposition with priority-setting Saturn. We can get our intentions honed down to a more refined point, making us more effective in the world. We might also be able to see better what is not working as well, and use that knowledge to clear out any bullcrap beliefs that are clouding and inhibiting our freedom of movement.

Remember that regardless of your relationship to your personal mother, good or bad, you are a beloved child of the Great Mother, and you came form this Earth just as you are. You are held and loved, unconditionally.

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The Nuit Report May 8: ART.
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