There is a term that I like a lot known as: "libidinal gain". Libidinal gain has to do with pleasure, power and energy exchange, and its meaning can best be described in the question: "who's getting off here?". Though "libido" is often misunderstood to mean sexual desire only, it is more than that. It has to do with life force, and the desire to live. Libido is why we wake up in the morning and get out of bed.
With Mars stationing in the heart of darkness of the Scorpio constellation, it may be apt to ask questions concerning "libidinal gain". A really frank inquiry might sound like, "Am I getting off enough here?"
or, "who is getting off here?" And, "Am I losing or gaining energy in this situation?"
With the astrology at play right now, we might be coming up against some chronic issues that feel weighty or oppressive. This is good news, because just simple awareness can lighten the burden almost automatically. Even though it may seem like the problems are bigger, its more about focus. Most of what we are noticing and dealing with now has been there the whole time, waiting for our attention.
Even if we are feeling less than enthused about life, if we are still getting up and going about a day, we have libido going on. and that is good! But chronic tiredness or depression or conflict can be a signal that we are allowing ourselves to engage in a "bad deal". We might need to make some shifts. And, just as a gentle reminder, if you do come into a negative awareness, please treat yourself kindly. We all do it.
Why am I carrying this? Is it worth it? What am I getting out of this? Sometimes we carry weight in order to avoid ourselves. Sometimes we just have no idea how else to live. These times are giving us a wonderful and challenging opportunity to reevaluate where/what we are plugging our energy into, and where we are sending our power.
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Aepril Schaile, MFA, is Venus ruled; a Taurus with Libra rising; Lilith conjunct ASC. As an adept astrologer, Aepril provides readings which can help solve everyday problems and assist in regaining a sense of alignment with True Will, finding your deeper, uniquely powerful truth. She lives in Salem, MA and spends her days with her beloved canine companion, Gwyddion.