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Perhaps this my heart continuing to open under this Sun-Neptune influence that we find ourselves in the middle of. The Sun is the Heart, and Neptune is the planet that shows us that we really are all One. Or, at a low vibration, it can show us the way to the local bar! Alcohol is otherwise known as "spirits", after all, and, like other drugs, it can give us the illusory feeling of being more connected. At any rate, it is the spirit of things that we are called to focus on now. We are invited to look beyond the veil of illusion in order to become more actualized and empowered.
With the integrity-oriented Virgoan energies combined with the Neptunian powers of veil-lifting, we might get a welcome (or unwelcome) revelation of some kind---something that might poke a hole in our denial. Being human, we all have places where we tend to lean on others, enable ourselves, co-depend, feed addictions, bullshit ourselves (and others), etc. Sometimes it might not even be such a bad thing, as we might need to have some illusion in place for a time in order to cope. But I'm going to say that with these very powerful energies, the time has come for the crutch to be put aside. Open heart, disciplined mind.
Fantasy and imagination are NOT the same. Fantasy can be used recreationally, but cannot be where we spend our time regularly; it is passive, and disengages us from participating in creating reality. Imagination, on the other hand, is dynamic and active, and is a force in creation. This can be a time of great magick. It's your choice if you are going to float around in this ocean of life as a victim, or if you are going to take the wheel. (Pssst...go ahead, Captain!)
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The Sun conjuncts Jupiter today, so out of the egg we begin to emerge!
The Sun is about consciousness, and Jupiter has to do with meaning and expansion. The energy is tending toward growing quickly now, and it could be disorienting, and (hopefully!) thrilling.
Sometimes as we grow in consciousness, there can be a sadness that comes with it. The reason for this can be that we now see how we might have been living in small and limited ways, and there can be grief associated with "lost opportunities". But this is an illusion. You are becoming more right now because of what has gone before. It couldn't have happened any other way. There is no wrong way to do or experience life, only experience itself.
Saturn is still there, testing us. Are you fit? Are you ready? Have you acquired the discipline? Are you in authority over you? Are you up to speed wit that which you are desiring to manifest?
Do you find the above list of questions daunting? Wonderful!...so do I! Good thing then that we're not here to be perfect all of the time, and that the work is never done. We just keep expanding in consciousness.
Try mediating on this, and see what comes up for you: Responsibility = Freedom.
There could be a feeling of burn out creeping in if we've been pushing ourselves. The energies right now are big highly charged, and if we haven't been allowing ourselves a chance to recharge, we could be feeling the hangover today! Might have even started yesterday for some.
The Sun moving into Virgo signals the doorway into harvest season, and the fact of the Summer winding down. Virgo is a sign of healing, and maybe we could use a dose of its medicine; take a few extra vitamins, hydrate, eat our greens, do some restorative yoga, attend to our spiritual hygiene practices...
We also get an invitation to manage the details of things, become more streamlined and efficient, and clean out those closets. I know a few Virgos who actually enjoy organizing; this Taurus would certainly rather enjoy a sandwich. BUT, what must be done must be done, and we might get the signal to up the ante on the work ethic.
The opposite sign of Virgo is Pisces; while Virgo is about integration (think: integrity) Pisces is about disintegration. Now, disintegration is not necessarily the opposite of integrity, and the medicine for any sign is contained in its opposite. Pisces might remind us that while yes, we would do well right now to pay attention to our diets, our work, and our daily practices, we would also benefit from including a homeopathic dose of Dionysian reverie. Whats the point of becoming a strong vessel if not to be a conduit for divine inspiration?
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Y'know, the astrology right now is just...bizarre.
We have energies that are both contracting and expanding us at the very same time. I mean, what the F are you supposed to DO with that? Haha! It can be like the sensation of growing inside of a container that is actually shrinking all at once.
That thought makes me think of being inside of an egg. Being a new bird, growing, but yet still perhaps not quite entirely ready to get out of the shell. It's getting really uncomfortable to be in here, and yet...we don't get to leave the egg until we are up to speed with being outside of it. The test for being ready?: that we can get out. That we have the strength and size to remove ourselves from this shell, and be outside of its protective container.
This is nature's way of keeping us safe and strong. This is the psyche's way of getting us fit for being in the situations we long for. It may seem like the shell is shrinking, but actually it is WE who are getting bigger. We are expanding in consciousness, and in desire.
We have 4 planets moving backwards right now. And, a square from the Time Lord Saturn cramping the style the Divine Child, the Sun. While these energies slow and deepen things, we also have the Sun approaching an expansive conjunction with Jupiter. That shell is feeling tighter and tighter perhaps, and we might feel like just having one big badass major temper tantrum out of sheer frustration!!! But relief may be on the way. Your job now is to focus on YOU, to get yourself up to speed for what is to come.
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Sometimes I have the best conversations at the dog park...
Where I go is not a dog park exactly. It's more of a nature preserve. But everyone goes there to hike with their dogs. What I love about it is that most of the people who take the time to drive out there each day are people who care about their canine companions, and about spending time in natural surroundings.
Anyway, I often have wonderful conversations walking along side some of the people I meet. Yesterday I had a conversation about astral travel and hypnagogic hallucinations (or what my friend called "reveries"). We found that we had a lot in common interns of experience with these kinds of liminal events.
My friend relayed to me some of her experiences with dark creature that seemed to sit on her chest at some of these moments. I asked her if she'd ever heard of an incubus? And that yeah, encounters of those kinds are well documented, especially in art! An artist herself, she was indeed aware, but none the less felt a sense of both fascination and violation at these times...
Why do I mention this to you today, dear reader? Because as Venus continues Her dark journey through the Underworld, we might be receiving visitations from some of our own demons. As we ourselves occupy the liminal space between waking and dreaming, a period between the end of one cycle and the beginning of another...our own dark aspects might pop up to be experienced. And yes, these aspects might feel both fascinating and violating, as they are right out of what Jung called the Shadow. And yet, these demons may hold the key to retrieving our greatest wealth yet to come.
What we resist, persists! When we fight our demons, they tend to get that much more... demonic. But the word "demon" is said to come from the Greek word "daemon" (δαίμων), basically meaning "genius". What bit of genius....what special medicine that only YOU have...might be being held back now simply be virtue of neglect, or dis-ownership? What piece of divinity have you relegated to the dark corners of your psyche, gone rogue and seemingly acting separately from your consciousness? What part of yourself have you made into an enemy?
I tell you now that this dark adversary holds the keys to your success.
Perhaps the image I chose for this post might seem morbid, and, well, it IS. But I think it is a beautiful illustration of Venus's sacred journey right now, at the horizon line as She is. She is birthing, but only by dying first. Let's talk more about that...
But first I wish to thank everyone again for all of the very thoughtful, profound, and heartfelt messages and comments to my last post. It was a big day, and I got through a dark place--and this time with the help of many souls. I am astounded by the wisdom and love that came forth!!
Just for the record, I wish to clarify. My sister did not die of a suicide. She died of complications due to very serious mental illness, Schizophrenia being central to that. There are so many circumstances that occur when one is sick with these diseases, over a lifetime they can build into something that grows beyond anything any human being can sustain--body and mind. My sister was a strong, smart and sparkly person who was thus overcome. Suicide is not the only danger that mental illness brings--medications, physical trauma, poverty, social isolation, misunderstanding and mistreatment resulting in exposure to danger, inability to take care of ones diet and health...these can all factor in. My sister was loyally and lovingly cared for by her amazing partner, and still it was all too much.
As with the last post, its my hope that this discussion can bring more awareness to the issues surrounding metal illness, and also serve to assure anyone who feels alone that you are NOT. We need to support one another, and resist any urge to (self) stigmatize or isolate. I know that for me personally, aside from the pain that is caused by such illnesses, I have so many questions. About how we might grow in love, support, and understanding as a society, about how to heal, and about the human mind and its amazing and mysterious complexities.
I'm curious about how, in this New Aeon that we are moving into, astrology can play a part in our collective growth. Venus is moving into her most Underwordly aspects of Her journey. Of all the planets, purging and testing Saturn is most visible in the night sky this month---which is unusual, because he usually shines dimmest. But the brighter planets--Jupiter, Mercury, and Venus--which he is still squaring to various degrees--are hiding in the glare of evening or morning twilight throughout this month. This tells me that they are readying for some new developments, the dawning of a new cycle.
Venus especially is about to transform from Her end of cycle Dark self into the brand new Warrior Maiden-- green but ready for action!!! But first She must be hidden away, in a cocoon of sorts, developing into the Goddess renewed. Just because we can't see whats happening doesn't mean its not happening! This is a time to move away from old patterns and ideas, and into new, fresh territory. Especially about love and worth. We are not our experiences, or even our thoughts. We are each much more than that.
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I'm going to tell you the true story: I am having a hard time writing this blog post today.
I lost my younger sister to mental illness about 3 years ago. Her death was a horrible shock. I am still recovering. I think of her every day, and even when I am not thinking of her, her death has a role in navigating my life. Sometimes, like last night, she shows up in my dreams. I still have terrible feelings of all kinds around not being able to protect her or help her, and about the childhood that we both experienced that was at least part of the cause of her illness. Sometimes my psyche needs me to pay special attention to this, to facilitate another step in my healing perhaps. That said, it makes it hard for me to concentrate on other things.
I'm thinking that maybe if I talk about my own experience, it might be a reflection in itself of some of the energies that are happening at this time. That my feelings and state of being today might as act a mirror in some way.
I wonder today about how it is that this experience of loss influences my relationships with others. How it inhibits intimacy and camaraderie at times. How it makes me feel excruciating sore and sensitive in places that sometimes surprise others--and myself!-- when I react to being touched. How I am sometimes run by worries about loss and leaving, and create some the very conditions that facilitate more of it. I'm struggling.
I'm hoping that maybe by putting light on this today, it ill not only serve me by sharing and getting out it , but might also serve one of you reading this blog. Sure, Venus is retrograde, and at Her deepest part of the Underworld journey; Saturn (the alchemical Black Sun) is squaring...like... everything, and Mercury (psychopomp and alchemical catalyst) is moving into an opposition with Neptune. All that. This morning a wise friend used V.I.T.R.I.O.L. as a descriptor for us, which might sum it up:
Visita Interiora Terrae Rectificando Invenies Occultum Lapidem, or V.I.T.R.I.O.L. : “Visit the interior of the earth and rectifying (purifying) you will find the hidden stone.”
Sometimes we've got to break down to break though. Often more than once; The Great Work can take lifetimes. I am grateful for each of you who read these posts and support my business. Much Love and LVX.
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About your astrologer:
Aepril Schaile, MFA, is Venus ruled; a Taurus with Libra rising; Lilith conjunct ASC. As an adept astrologer, Aepril provides readings which can help solve everyday problems and assist in regaining a sense of alignment with True Will, finding your deeper, uniquely powerful truth. She lives in Salem, MA and spends her days with her beloved canine companion, Gwyddion.